To whom it may concern, -I feel like a fraud every day, in every situation. Today is no exception. This is no exception. -When I say I'm shy, I mean I have social anxiety. I'm nervous and uncomfortable just being around people most of the time. -My mental health is pretty good now, but it … Continue reading What You Don’t Know
Tag: anxiety
The One Where I’m (still) Sad
Dear Me, How are you? I know I know the answer to that. You've been better. Your best friend just came into your room and asked what you were doing today and then said "I'm sorry you're sad." You knew, deep down somewhere, didn't you? You knew you were sad, but you didn't think you … Continue reading The One Where I’m (still) Sad
Anxiety is Not an Accessory
https://youtu.be/qr2wrpvdvlI Hi, my name's Amanda, and I have anxiety...do you? You, looking for a way to stand out, thinking this will make people care about you. It won't. Being a good person will. But yeah, I see you. You're romanticizing something that millions of people struggle with every day so let me just tell you: … Continue reading Anxiety is Not an Accessory
The One Where I’m Trying
I fell on my butt last week, I'll admit it. I didn't want this to be my Wednesday post. I had a much better Wednesday post planned than the word vomit that is this introspective series, but unfortunately I stumbled a bit today, too, and I couldn't do it. I'll get that up another day, … Continue reading The One Where I’m Trying
The One Where Mental Illness is No Joke
If the point of this series is to record genuine human emotion, then that is the only point of blogging today. You don't want to read about me not at my best, and the post I had planned for today that had nothing to do with my lack of emotional well-being, well, I didn't plan … Continue reading The One Where Mental Illness is No Joke
The One Where I’m Starting to Crack
That's an ironic title given the last post was about positivity. I am struggling to stay positive. I need to follow some of my own advice. I just feel a lot of pressure right now about school. I've never tried this hard in school before. Ever. And that's honestly really scary for me. You see, I think … Continue reading The One Where I’m Starting to Crack
The One Where I’m Anxious
Anxiety is new for me. I've only had it for about a year now, and it's like not being able to do things you used to as easily. I don't get panic attacks, I just...get tired and anxious and uncomfortable and need to be alone in a secure place. This trip should have been easy … Continue reading The One Where I’m Anxious
Letters From Exchange: The One Where I’m Starting to Stress
Pretty soon I'm going to have to title these something else, because my exchange is certainly coming to a close. To just jump in and address the title, I am starting to stress out quite a bit. It's my own fault, really. Well, it's a combination of having a lot going on and procrastinating proactive … Continue reading Letters From Exchange: The One Where I’m Starting to Stress
Letters From Exchange: The One Where I Have a Monster Inside of My Chest
I have a monster inside of my chest. There, I said it. A monster. Some days it feels like a lion, some days a dragon, some days just pure fire. It changes form but it never leaves, because my body is its cage. Yes, that's right, there is a monster in my chest and my … Continue reading Letters From Exchange: The One Where I Have a Monster Inside of My Chest
One Month Overdue
The longer I wait to type this out the harder it gets. It's been almost a full month since my last real post, despite my initial goal to blog three times a week. I don't really need to explain myself to anyone, because it is my personal blog and it is my random thoughts and … Continue reading One Month Overdue
