I told myself I would write a new blog post every Saturday, so here goes nothing:
This past week I’ve been working hard, trying to balance school and work and maybe actually doing homework sometimes. It’s had more ups than downs and overall I’m highly satisfied, but one day that stuck out most was Wednesday. Tuesday was a crazy frantic day that was all sorts of wrong yet right, and miraculously ended in me finishing all of my homework, thus resulting in a heightened sense of confidence in myself when I stepped into my Russian classes. I felt so good about myself.
Afterward, I went to the information fair for my university’s exchange program and learned that I cannot go to Iceland next year on exchange, the one place I had my heart set on, simply because I didn’t make the marks last year. Now, I was really upset at first, and I questioned so many things and kicked myself for slacking off so much despite how much progress I’ve been making. I’ve been wanting to go on an exchange to Iceland for years and my university has it and everythingjustcamecrushingdown.
And on Thursday, it was alright. Everything was just fine.
See all last Spring I went through the same thing. Opportunities I had hoped and wished for, the ones that were all I cared about doing this year, one by one turned me down for a variety of reasons that all ended in the same conclusion: I didn’t take myself seriously enough. I didn’t prepare enough. I became depressed and lacked virtually all motivation to work after that, but I rebuilt myself. I’m stronger now. Which is why I know that when one door closes, another one opens, and that if the problem is I don’t work hard enough, I need to work ten times harder than I ever have.
Maybe I can’t study in Iceland next year, but there are tens of other amazing countries I can go to. The important thing is that I stop selling myself short and learn to live up to my full potential.
So you beautiful souls who have made it this far in the post, I shall leave you with a quote of a rather wise man to emphasize my point.
Nothing in the world is worth having or doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty…I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.” -Theodore Roosevelt
Stay lovely, lovelies, and work hard.